People are embarrassed in talking about penis, this will not matter if there aren’t things that you must know about it . However, people are so hush hush about it that it’s not surprising to find people who have no basic ideas on some of the common problem with it One search on google and you will retrieve tons of result of uncircumcised dude not knowing that you must retract the foreskin of your penis in order to clean it. God damn it! I am one of them and didn’t start trying to pull back my foreskin until I was like 20. Can you imagine that? 20 years of accumulated smegma and dry pee. The fucking horror.
After reaching twenty, I tell myself that there might be a random chance that I have to have sex so I must be prepared to make sure my penis works. I also heard from my friend on how he circumcised his penis after noticing that his bro’s penis is retractable but not his. That’s also the first time I heard that your penis should be easily retractable. ‘
I remembered back in the day when I am this stupid ass 5 years old kid, my papa told me to pull back my foreskin when I shower, it’s a good advice but pulling the skin back is so tough and nauseating. The penis gland fucking stings and hurts a lot. I tried it throughout my life but totally gave up on it. I didn’t really care too much about it because I could masturbate easily and it’s not affecting my life.
I started playing with my penis since I was 5 years old. I don’t even know why I did that, I think I just overheard from someone that it feels good to play with your penis. I don’t even know anything about sex or whatever but I instinctively know that playing with your penis is something very dirty, that’s why I always do it discreetly.
Here comes the 1st problem! I am doing it wrong all the fucking time! I wear my shorts and just hump my pillow until it feels good. This will result in deformed penis and tons of complications. It will also aggravated your tight foreskin issue.
Anyway, no juice will come out until you are around 11 or 12. The first time I felt juice coming out, I thought it was pee because I just shoot in my pants without really caring about it. Then one day, I got adventurous after watching tons of porn( I watched tons of porn but didn’t realize that sex is putting your penis inside vagina until I was 14 when my friend told me so) I start getting naked and hump my pillow. To my fucking horror, gross white pee starts shooting out.OMG! My first thought is that I got STD! I am so afraid of masturbating after that but temptation kept winning over me and I just leave it to fate if I really got STD. It’s not until I was 14 years old that I realize that maybe this shit is normal. From 12 to 14, 2 years of living in ignorance and fear.
I did the humping shit until I was around 14 years old. I always thought that using hand is too gross, I was so pure back then but once you tried the hand, you can’t go back to humping pillow. Too bad, even though I used my hand, I still do it while wearing briefs. This further aggravate my problem of not pulling my foreskin back and makes it tighter. I didn’t try dropping down my pants until I was 17 or so. Getting naked is too gross. I masturbate by rubbing my foreskin back and fore without pulling it at all, it works so whatever. I frequently still do it in brief though, easier to clean up and more discreet that way.
Then came the realization when I was 20 that I must really start pulling my foreskin back if I need to have normal sex. However, after years of bad masturbating techniques, I am doomed with a very tight foreskin that makes me faint when I tried pulling it back.I searched through the internet and start learning stuff about phimosis, paraphimosis(cannot roll foreskin back and start chocking your penis until it turns purple and die) and circumcision. Phimosis is very tight foreskin that doesn’t allow you to pull it back to your gland. I thought I had that because shit is really tight. I am so confused and afraid back then and considered the extreme in circumcision.
Luckily, there are enough good information on the internet so I didn’t do anything stupid. I did a lot of foreskin stretching and starts pulling back my foreskin bits by bits. It’s excruciating and painful because your penis gland has never been exposed to open air for 20 over years. I was vomiting and feeling nausea with cold sweat after successfully pulling it back to reveal half of my penis head. It’s a terrible experience and I cursed myself for not knowing these shit earlier. Luckily, I was manly enough to fight the nausea and did it everyday for almost a month. I also start masturbating without pants so I can stretch the foreskin.
After weeks of training, I finally could pull back half of my foreskin with some work. I tried to pull it over the whole gland but the skin rolls in weird way and I am afraid of paraphimosis so I didn’t push it for years and thought it was ok because my foreskin is too long or I have semi phimosis or whatever. I finally can clean off those damn white disgusting smegma and was happy about it. My gland is still raw and red and my corona(the penis gland rim) is still sensitive and stings as fuck but whatever, my foreskin won’t roll back to expose the corona if one day, some girl will suddenly give me a blowjob or put her vagina on my dick, or so I thought.
Then today, 16 December, 4hours ago, out of curiosity, I bought a tenga egg, a tenga onacup and an onahole to test them out because I read that they felt awesome and I wanted something better than hand. I felt like a fucking loser for buying these toys but the temptation is too frigging high! I anticipated this day for so long and stopped my fapping for a few days just to try out the supposing amazing experience.
Then I start putting my penis inside the tenga onacup and god damn it, I don’t feel any pleasure. It feels so ticklish and sometimes stings. It wasn’t so bad but I can’t ejaculate. I pulled it out and to my horror, my foreskin is fully retracted! My plan of not exposing my corona in case of magical, accidental sex did not work at all. Also, I am so used to masturbating with the foreskin, my gland is really raw and sensitive because I didn’t make any effort in desensitizing it. I always thought it was all right because it does not sting as much but I was naive.
After all this time, I always thought I had phimosis and my foreskin is too long and tight to be able to retract fully. Little did I know that I am perfectly fucking normal in that my foreskin will automatically retract after insertion with enough lube. Now all my feeling of being a loser is gone, in fact I am so thankful that I found out my problem because I was shameless enough to try a sex toy. Imagine if I was with a woman that need me to have sex with her, how shitty of a first experience will that be when I found out that I can’t ejaculate even after hours of thrusting. Sex should be fun but I think this fantasy will be totally ruined if I didn’t realize my problem.
In order to remedy that, I worked really hard in playing with the onacup. Playing is the wrong word because I felt no pleasure. I was so bored and tired because I am just stroking my dicks for hours to desensitize my shitty penis gland. It’s not fun, I felt very bored and sometimes the penis stings. I am also afraid of paraphimosis so I kept checking if I could roll my foreskin back. Thankfully, my foreskin is not even that tight to cause paraphimosis. Even now, I am fully retracted for hours and I can roll back my foreskin easily so I don’t think paraphimosis will ever occur. Now I am just letting the penis be fully retracted while wearing a brief over it and continues my normal life in hope that shit will finally not sting one day.
I lived in a conservative country so no one talks about penis and shit openly. This fucking suck because I would have learnt my lesson earlier on if people are more opened about it. I realize that you should really start teaching your kids about sex and masturbation at a younger age so they wouldn’t make mistakes like I did. I bet these little 5 years old buggers are playing with their penis without you knowing anyway so why not teach them the right way of doing it instead of being hush hush about it. All together, we should just embrace sex so it will not be embarrassing to talk about it. Children and adults alike could learn more and prevent complication by realizing what’s normal and what’s not.
Also, the stigma of sex toys or men is fucking oppressing. I felt like a perverted loser for buying it because of what? Now that I think of it, I have no idea. I think people’s view will be because I am a desperate virgin that never kiss a girl. Personally I am not desperate at all because I couldn’t really care about building relationship, they are troublesome and I have other things to worry about. Not to mention, I don’t think a relationship is all about sex anyway. I find it disrespectful to equate relationship with a girl as losing virginity or sex. Even if I have sexual urge, it can be easily dealt with by masturbating. In fact, I think I really like masturbating not because I am desperate for sex but more of it being really fun to do, considering how I found it fun even when I knew nothing about sex. Now I am glad that I made the right choice so further down my life, I will not have any complication when sex is mandatory.
Internet has really helped a lot in eradicating ignorance. I learned a lot of great lessons from it. It’s also a forum for any niche shit that is out there but will never exist without internet. I am thankful in learning a lot of great lesson about penis and shit from the internet. You just can’t find any other source to learn about it casually because without the anonymity of the internet, everyone is too embarrassed to share.